Goodbye, my almost lover..

I met this guy via chat. Few weeks later, I didn't noticed I was falling for him. He is an attorney! I am an ordinary student. Walls must be built between us but he built a bridge. The bridge serves as our communication with one another. He crosses the bridge just to meet me. Just when I realized I was crossing the bridge also just to see him.


March 29,2008 was the day.That was his birthday and the day I said my sweet yes to him. Since he is always in Manila for work, every minute, every second of the day we were texting.. if he wants to hear my voice, he calls. That time, I found myself crazy about him.


When he went here in Davao last May 21,2008, I feasted. My heart's overwhelmed with joy and other unexplainable feelings. We dated. We talked. We laughed together..

May 22,2008 was tragic. He had to bid goodbye to went back in Manila. I cried in the taxi with the song playing "You changed my life".. He really changed me.. He really changed my life instantly.. I can say that he controlled me because am not anymore myself. Even I don't know who's the character am portraying..
Even my friends, board mates and family members noticed the changes in me.. In my behavior. I was serious then, I limit my jokes and I seldom laugh(as in bwahaha!)



Unexpectedly, we broke up. maybe I just can't withstand that he's not here with me. I never conquered the challenge of being afar from him. It's very painful and very hard to accept. Painful to let him go away in just a split of second.. Hard in a way that I'm used just to have him around the corner.. Just a text away and now.. he is nowhere to be found.


I can say that he is my first love. Months I have suffered longing for to see his smile.. to feel his touch.. Longing for his attention and love.. Even now, I can still feel the pain within me.. I can still recall our happy moments together. Even now am still in a boat.. all alone. With the roaring thunders and heavy rains falling.

I know I have to move on and live my life the way I wanted it to be..
I know I must be happy and contented because God is always there for me..
Faith and hope are my only tools in the emptiness that am feelin' as of this moment..



I just want to bid goodbye to Atty. Alan Aguasin..
who was once mine...
Who was once my lover..
who was once my baby..
He once made me the center of his universe..
He once let me feel like am a princess at his own castle..
It all belonged to my past now..
And I firmly believed that
" A person can't live the future by his past."

So... now... I would say...


Goodbye Alan.. Goodbye my almost lover..